old pain is replaced with new pain

The thing I love about my blog is that no one reads it, ha ha. Probably cause I don't tell anyone I have it. It has been a good amount of time since I have placed a new entry in here. I find it difficult to keep up with my blog, not that it takes a long time, but rather I just dont get enough motivation. There are usually lots of things I want to share, but maybe hold back for fear of someone reading it? I don't know. The title of this blog has not really much relation to this but rather a quote I heard from a music artist on wednesday through the NPR broadcast as I was driving down to charlotte. I really liked the quote and found it to be quite relavent in my life with past situations.

This semester in school has been the most different semester of school I have ever experienced in so many different ways. It has been enjoyable yet at times frustrating and essentially bittersweet. I feel that I'm at a point now where boone is no longer for me. I'm ready to move on to something bigger and better. I am looking hard to find a position that will take me abroad and I think I might have found that one connection that will get me a job in Europe. However, vamos a ver. The longer I am away from spain I think the greater my love for spain becomes. Two days ago as I was working I saw a couple in the store and they appeared like they were from spain. I mean the way they were dressed, the mans glasses, the color of their skin and hair. So I finally got the courage to walk up to them and ask where they were from as they were checking out. Not to mention I thought I had heard an accent. The gentlemen replied, I'm from raleigh and my sister from my miami. Immediately dissapointed, I said oh, I thought I had heard an accent. He said, well our family is originally from spain in alicante. I said "OH, GREAT!!". Then we continued to discuss spain a little longer than went on our way. Yesterday as I was working a lady came in looking at a sweater and I asked if she needed any help. Immediately I heard her accent and recognized it, I said where are you from? Her reply "Spain, Madrid". Me: "Ah Vale, entonces podemos hablar en espanol". So we continue to talk in espanol and I discussed my love for spain. She is a professor here in Boone of history and will be here for three more months than will move back to Spain. It made me sooo happy to meet her and be able to talk to her in spanish knowing that she was from Madrid.

So this semester has been full of studying, drinking with my boys, working, exploring, healing, and searching. I look forward to next semester as it will be my last and final semester (unless I choose to go to grad school). As my good friend Jeff Tweedy says "Its good to be alone".