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So... it has been almost two years since I've posted anything to this blog.... I might go ahead and give it a try, it seems to be much easier to 'update' than using my website.  I have a lot of new stuff going on in my life that I can't quite post about or talk about just yet, but soon. 

old pain is replaced with new pain

The thing I love about my blog is that no one reads it, ha ha. Probably cause I don't tell anyone I have it. It has been a good amount of time since I have placed a new entry in here. I find it difficult to keep up with my blog, not that it takes a long time, but rather I just dont get enough motivation. There are usually lots of things I want to share, but maybe hold back for fear of someone reading it? I don't know. The title of this blog has not really much relation to this but rather a quote I heard from a music artist on wednesday through the NPR broadcast as I was driving down to charlotte. I really liked the quote and found it to be quite relavent in my life with past situations.

This semester in school has been the most different semester of school I have ever experienced in so many different ways. It has been enjoyable yet at times frustrating and essentially bittersweet. I feel that I'm at a point now where boone is no longer for me. I'm ready to move on to something bigger and better. I am looking hard to find a position that will take me abroad and I think I might have found that one connection that will get me a job in Europe. However, vamos a ver. The longer I am away from spain I think the greater my love for spain becomes. Two days ago as I was working I saw a couple in the store and they appeared like they were from spain. I mean the way they were dressed, the mans glasses, the color of their skin and hair. So I finally got the courage to walk up to them and ask where they were from as they were checking out. Not to mention I thought I had heard an accent. The gentlemen replied, I'm from raleigh and my sister from my miami. Immediately dissapointed, I said oh, I thought I had heard an accent. He said, well our family is originally from spain in alicante. I said "OH, GREAT!!". Then we continued to discuss spain a little longer than went on our way. Yesterday as I was working a lady came in looking at a sweater and I asked if she needed any help. Immediately I heard her accent and recognized it, I said where are you from? Her reply "Spain, Madrid". Me: "Ah Vale, entonces podemos hablar en espanol". So we continue to talk in espanol and I discussed my love for spain. She is a professor here in Boone of history and will be here for three more months than will move back to Spain. It made me sooo happy to meet her and be able to talk to her in spanish knowing that she was from Madrid.

So this semester has been full of studying, drinking with my boys, working, exploring, healing, and searching. I look forward to next semester as it will be my last and final semester (unless I choose to go to grad school). As my good friend Jeff Tweedy says "Its good to be alone".

"At least that's what you said"

"When I sat down on the bed next to you
You started to cry
I said, maybe if I leave, you'll want me
To come back home
Or maybe all you mean, is leave me alone
At least that's what you said

You're irresistible when you get mad
Isn't it sad, I'm immune
I thought it was cute
For you to kiss
My purple black eye
Even though I caught it from you
I still think we're serious
At least that's what you said"

-Wilco

Wino

I'm in a class at App called "Understanding and Appreciation of Wine". It is a very interesting class that I have learned a huge amount of knowledge on wine and different regions. Since taking the class I have not been to a wine shop and browsed all the wines from the Old World. Though yesterday during my escapades with Brooke we stopped in to one looking for a bottle and I kid you not, I was like a little boy in a candy store. I was running around looking at all the Old World wines reading the labels thinking as to which type of grapes they would be in that bottle. It was so much fun. The most fun I had was with the French wines and figuring out which regions the wines were from and so on. It was a wonderful time and allowed me to really see how much I have learned in this class.

The thing that was the coolest was I stumbled upon the really nice Chateau Wines and found one from Chateau Margaux. It was a 2003. It is a Premier Gran Cru and had a price tag of $999.99. Not to bad for a bottle of wine huh? Anyway, after taking this class thus far I have learned an eroneous amount about Wine and hope to continue to learn so much more. It is a very interesting and intriguing area of study.

coffee done bad

I had a recent experience at a new coffee shop in town that wasn't quite the best. I have my coffee shops that I go to because of the quality of their coffee and the proper way they make their specialty drinks. However, I noticed this new coffee shop and wanted to give it a try to see if they are a quality shop. As I walked in it was comfortable and cozy, quite small, but they did have an upstairs to hang out and chill. I didn't proceed to go up because I was just coming in and out. I asked for a latte, but after asking felt I should ask how many shots he puts in the small. He said that "I normally put one in for a 12 oz." Which typically most people put two in but whatever, I just ask him not to fill the cup all the way.

As I watched him prepare the shot and the milk, it was a very poor performance. The milk was steamed terribly and the shot came flying out like a rushing waterfall. It was done in roughly 7-8 seconds. There was not a bit of crema on top of the shot. I knew it was going to taste terrible. I paid for my drink and walked out almost scared to take a sip. Once I gained enough courage to take a sip I quickly found out how extremly hot it was. Once it was at a point where it was drinkable I found the taste to be like that of a quickie mart cappuchino from the machines. It was awful, I tooke three sips and threw it away. I was really dissapointed that anyone would open a coffee shop and serve such a terrible drink.

However while being here in raleigh I had a very good experience with a coffee shop. My friend brooke and I went downtown raleigh and ate at this place called Raleigh Times. I had an awesome lunch and was very impressed. After we decided to enjoy a little coffee. As I walked it I immediately loved it. It had a wonderful ambiance and they looked as if they knew what they were doing. When I looked at the menu I noticed that under "Espresso", it was labeled "Macchiato". If you are familiar at all with coffee you know that a "Macchiato" isn't a starbucks latte with caramel thrown all over it. But it is a shot of espresso with a dolip of milk or froth put on the top or "marked" with milk.

Anyway, I asked the Barista how he makes his Macchiato and he said "Well I can make it the traditional way with....." before he was able to finish I said, "I'm glad you guys actually make it the way it is suppose to be made, I'll take that". I was really impressed. I have never seen a coffee shop that actually offered a Macchiato on the menu. It made me really happy to know that there are some people out there that cherish the actual art of coffee and the truth in the drinks. So this experience compensated greatly for my previous one the day before.

finding a job sucks

So this whole looking for a job thing isn't very fun. I thought it was suppose to be fun and exciting and not so stressful. I guess when all you want to do is do work not within the United States is when you run into these issues. I went to a job fair last week and didn't have an enjoyable time at all. It seemed that these companies were just trying to hire sales people, well I'm sorry but my major is International Business, I don't want to do sales, especially not here in the states, dang it. I really don't want to have to do sales. It is kind of hard to find a job right after graduating that will take me overseas, however I'm not giving up just yet!! I'm burnt and ready to be done with school and have a job. I haven't even gotten this deep into the whole job thing and I'm tired already... plus this whole wearing a suit thing. Life was much more simple back in the day when you lived in the sticks.

Speaking of all this crap I have an interview next week, yipee!!! Just put me somewhere overseas and tell me what you want me to do, I'm pretty easy going. Also speaking of interviews I got grilled about my GPA yesterday during one, ha ha. They sure hit me down a notch. I have travelled though and expanded my mind in that aspect so .... what? what? Have you ever lived in another country? I didn't think so, get off my GPA. Well unfortunately now I must leave to go study to try and get my GPA up, Jerk.

a new thing

Well,
This is my first blog. Unfortunately I don't have my website anymore and lost all the information so I've moved on to Blogger in hopes that my blogs will not be lost and will be stored on someone elses server that is much more secure.

I haven't blogged in a very long time and feel as if there is a mountain of information and things to share, but I will try to share as much as possible over these next few blogs until I am caught up on my process of thought.

One thing that is always on my mind is how weird it is to be back in the states and the great desire to leave this place and be located in another place where not a person knows my name nor where I am from. In hopes that this would be the same feeling for me. I desire so dearly to speak in spanish constantly all day long with people, but not many speak here. I loved that they set up intercambios while in Spain, the states suck!! ha. So the emptyness in my heart right now is from the lack of diversity I see here, and the unability to use my spanish in the way that I want to. SUCK!! It makes it easier living in a spanish speaking country huh?

Well for now as I continue to be so busy in life, I must go take some exercise for the day.
For now